'scapers resident nutcase

[Crypto-Knight]

Hi. I kind of don't know what to say. I have caused problems not only on here, but throughout my life.

I don't consider myself much of a soldier. I never saw war. But guys I knew, or at least respected as soldiers, we had a funeral once a month. Once a month.

I go through a severe manic depressive episode every six days. I've timed it. Six days. I've lost jobs, family, friends, and college over this. I am not playing the sympathy card because I do not want your god damn sympathy. I am just tired of being treated like a mental patient.

This might sound kind of stupid and juvenile, but the 'Scape helps keep me going in life. I have no delusions about it; rather, life is very strange to me and I cannot comprehend it. I don't get it. But my game stuff, I can categorize, and order. The sense of order and what I can comprehend amidst a weird strange randomness that always threatens to invade my head.

I hope, whenever I offend someone, I did not mean to. There are things I do I literally truly do not remember. It's getting worse over time. I actually accused my father of raping or not raping my school friend.

I think he wanted to.

I am so sorry. They always ignore the last half of the diagnosis..... "Psychotic Features".

I never wanted to hurt any of you. Please tell johngee and my friends. I am so sorry.

[Heroscaper Guy]

Originally Posted by Crypto-Knight

Hi. I kind of don't know what to say. I have caused problems not only on here, but throughout my life.

I don't consider myself much of a soldier. I never saw war. But guys I knew, or at least respected as soldiers, we had a funeral once a month. Once a month.

I go through a severe manic depressive episode every six days. I've timed it. Six days. I've lost jobs, family, friends, and college over this. I am not playing the sympathy card because I do not want your god damn sympathy. I am just tired of being treated like a mental patient.

This might sound kind of stupid and juvenile, but the 'Scape helps keep me going in life. I have no delusions about it; rather, life is very strange to me and I cannot comprehend it. I don't get it. But my game stuff, I can categorize, and order. The sense of order and what I can comprehend amidst a weird strange randomness that always threatens to invade my head.

I hope, whenever I offend someone, I did not mean to. There are things I do I literally truly do not remember. It's getting worse over time. I actually accused my father of raping or not raping my school friend.

I think he wanted to.

I am so sorry. They always ignore the last half of the diagnosis..... "Psychotic Features".

I never wanted to hurt any of you. Please tell johngee and my friends. I am so sorry.

We all bring our own set of problems to whatever we do, each one of us. One of my favorite songs called "We Are the Others" by Delain talks about this. Those that are "normal" are just able to cover their problems better than we can unfortunately. After all, I feel at times depression and other things from not having my friends really relate with my interests (they like sports, I like board games; they like superheroes slightly, I like superheroes a lot; they like shooter games, I like strategy games; they like your typical teen movies, I like the geeky ones; the list goes on) Sorry for hijacking it with me but I needed to get it off my chest. If you need someone to talk to Cryptoknight, I'm always available.

[cwidje]

Originally Posted by Heroscaper Guy

We all bring our own set of problems to whatever we do, each one of us. One of my favorite songs called "We Are the Others" by Delain talks about this. Those that are "normal" are just able to cover their problems better than we can unfortunately. After all, I feel at times depression and other things from not having my friends really relate with my interests (they like sports, I like board games; they like superheroes slightly, I like superheroes a lot; they like shooter games, I like strategy games; they like your typical teen movies, I like the geeky ones; the list goes on) Sorry for hijacking it with me but I needed to get it off my chest. If you need someone to talk to Cryptoknight, I'm always available.

Every person has his/her own problems in life, some merely hide them. Sites like these, thankfully, accept people for who they are. I've discovered that, even though I know very few 'scapers outside of heroscapers.com, everyone is family; even though we may sometimes want to rip each other limb from limb, we forgive each other. If anything ever needs to be said, I hope that the speaker shall not hesitate.